broken resolutions

I’m going to be honest with you. I tried my best to keep my New Year’s resolution. I really did.

I couldn’t do it.

I’m back on the podcasting harder than ever. Part of that is due to the pandemic that we are facing. The other part of that is dealing with the fact that things have changed.

If you didn’t know, my resolution was to get back into music and to listen to an album a week. You can read about it here if you’re interested.

My goal was to get back into music. Music was always something that was hugely important to me when I was a teenager. I loved it. Sometimes, I felt like I needed it to get me through the various things that we are forced to face as we are growing up. I’ve worn out tapes and CDs in my time and I used to be proud of my rather extensive collection of different types of music.

It’s just not the case anymore.

It would be a cheap shot to say that this happens with age. But it does. I’m getting older and my priorities and how I choose to spend my time has radically shifted. When I am doing mindless work or walking around, I prefer the podcast. And I’ve run back to the medium in the midst of the pandemic. It’s a comfort zone.

There’s more reasons, I think. Another human voice is important. We’re in quarantine and hearing other people is nice. I enjoy listening to conversations and learning. It helps the isolation to hear someone outside of my work-based video calls. I need that and, to be honest, I feel like it helps.

Also, I’ll admit that I am daunted. There is so much music out there. Spotify is supposed to help, but it just ends up paralyzing me. I don’t know where to start and, when I end up with something that I don’t enjoy, I feel like I’ve made wrong decisions. It’s a weird cycle of me trying to re-engage something that I used to care about and finding myself coming up short.

I don’t have answers. I guess I’ve changed. Who knows?

But I figured that I need to be truthful about it. I made the resolution public. I need to make the failure public too. I did listen to a few good albums and I enjoyed the ride while it lasted.

Maybe there will be time to re-engage with music down the line. Maybe I’ll finally tire of podcasts and hop back on the bandwagon.

Stay safe and healthy out there.

ER

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